I’m 29 now and the most of my life I spent letting the other people, situation and external circumstances dictate who I am and how I should feel. I was not aware of it but I often felt like the life was against me.
When I disliked my job, I continued blaming my boss and the work instead than looking to the fact that it was actually my choice to go there everyday.
In conflicts, I often blamed others instead of reflecting on my own contributions.
Judging someone else’s life choices was easier than examining my own.
When I was going to work that I didn’t like, I rather blamed my boss and the job I was doing than looking to the fact that it’s actually my choice to go there everyday.
When I had a conflict with someone close, it was easier to find first the fault in them than question if what I was seeing is actually coming from me.
When I had some health issues, I just saw the doctors as the only possible lifesavers and if they didn’t know to help me, I started blaming them for their incompetency instead of taking it as an invitation to finally start listening to my body.
Judging someone else’s life choices was easier than examining my own.
And with this I don’t mean I should have blame myself because that was exactly what I was doing as well.
During the Uni exams, when I didn’t pass some of them and the prof said, you are not prepared enough, I saw the fault in myself.
Criticism at work I received from my colleague or boss made me feel inadequate, letting words os someone else define my self-worth.
I found it easier to blame the world around me than take responsibility for my life.
Feeling like a victim, I judged myself and everything around based on what I saw and heard.
It was definitely easier than looking inside myself and questioning my own attitude.
Today, rather than perceiving the victim mentality as an obstacle, I recognize it as a starting point that sparked my personal growth. I view it as a crucial chapter in my life, one that was essential for my journey of transformation.